The days seems to pass-by very slow…and the more I spent time with Kuya Honey, the more it feels like we’re building this big wall between us.

Bakit ganito? Parang mas masaya pa ako nung magkausap lang kami sa telepono.  Di ba dapat mas ok na magkasama kami? Bakit kung kelan ko sya nahahawakan para namang wala siya sa tabi ko? The longer I am with him, the more I feel alone.

Ewan ko ba, everything started so good but now, parang gusto ko ng umalis at iwanan siya. May mga ugali kase siyang hindi ko maintindihan. I’m not sure baka masyado lang westernized yung ugali niya. Pero iba eh. Hindi naman siya ganon noong magkausap kami noon. Hay ewan! Basta nalulungkot ako. Bakit ba sya ganyan.

I decided to meet up with my Dora friends to share my sentiments.  I just told Kuya Honey that I’m going to work and will be back for dinner. So ayun, nagkita kami ng mga Dora’s sa mall.

Me:  Gusto ko na umalis besh, parang iba naman eh…

Dora 1 : Bakit naman, may pinag awayan ba kayo?

Me:  Wala naman. Meron lang siyang hindi nagustuhan na ginawa ko. Hindi ko naman alam na ayaw nya na pinagsasabihan, edi ba hindi naman masama yun? Normal lang naman yun specially if you care for someone.

Dora 1:  Ano ba yan? Napaka abnormal naman ng lalaking yan! Pero yaan mo na muna, baka naman stage lang yan kase nga close na kayo masyado. Alam mo yun, simpleng tamporurot lang yan. Lutuan mo nalang kaya, I’m sure matutuwa yun.

Dora 2 :  Oo nga! Tara mag grocery tayo. May kitchen naman dun sa room nyo diba? Dali tara dun tayo sa supermarket.

Me:  Sabagay, tara… 

So ayun, namili ako ng lulutuin ko at bumili na rin ako ng favorite snacks nya. I was feeling optimistic that things will turn around.

After that, I bid goodbye to my friends and went back to the hotel. Pagpasok ko sa room, wala sya…  “What??? “ I was abit disappointed not to see him there. Akala ko pa man din andun siya kase sabi nya we will watch movie. Hayyy, napahinga nalang ako ng malalim at nagluto.

9pm… 10pm… 10:30pm… Wow wala pa si Kuya Honey! Musta naman? Mukha akong tanga na nag aantay sa kanya. So I tried calling his phone. Sumagot naman ang loko,

Me: “Are you not coming back? I thought you said we will watch movie? I sent you text messages even before I got here in the hotel. Binabasa mo ba??? “

Kuya Honey: Andito ako sa spa, nagpafootspa ako at facial. Wala akong narereceive na messages from you. Tatapusin ko lang to tapos punta nako dyan. “

Me:  Nanggagala-iti nako sa inis. “Ok just come home. “

I dropped the call.

Nakakagalit! Ano ba yan? Napaka insensitive naman nya! Imagine I cancelled several commitments just to be with him tapos iniiwan nya lang ako??? Akala ko ba gusto nya ako makasama? Buwesit talaga! Ayaw ko na! Aalis na talaga ako!

1 hour passed. I was lying in bed when I heard the door opened. It was Kuya Honey. He greeted me with a smile as if nothing happened. Lalo tuloy nakakagalet diba. So I confronted him and told him that I really feel bad about what he did. He was apologetic but I don’t see his sincerity.

Me:  “I’ll just leave. I don’t think you need me here. ” Sabay ayos ng mga gamit ko.

After I finished packing. I looked at him. He was sitting by the bed,  head bent low as if he was looking at the floor.  He did not even looked back, so I carried my 2 bags and headed to the door.

Me: “Balikan ko nalang yung ibang gamit ko ha, ibaba ko muna to. “

Still no words from him.

I stepped out with teary eyes. I just couldn’t believe that he would just let me walk away like that? Grabe! Napakalupit naman nya. I was wiping the tears in my eyes when I reached the lobby. I headed straight to my car and loaded my bags.

Inhale, exhale …. inhale, exhale…. inhale, exhale. After few minutes, I went back to our room to get the rest of my stuff.

When I entered the room,

Kuya Honey:  “Talaga bang gusto mo ng umalis? “

Me: “Mukha naman kasing nakakagulo lang ako sayo. I want you to enjoy your stay here, so I’ll just leave you. Para wala ng maghahanap sayo o magbobother kung anong activity mo. “

Kuya Honey: “Hindi naman sa ganon. Wag ka ng umalis please… “

Me: “Ok lang. I’ll go. Ingat ka nalang ha”. Then I smiled at him.

As I approach the door, he hugged me from behind and said sorry.  Hayyyy… ano ba yan! Nakakainis naman tong si Kuya Honey! Pano ko naman mareresist yang ganyan! (#Landepamore)

“Sige na nga! Nakakainis ka kase eh, basta wag ng ganon ha!”

He kissed me by the forehead and smiled.

That night, our room was filled with laughter again. It was like a sweet music to my ears. Ang saya! Sana ganito nalang ulit lagi. We were up until 3 am just exchanging our life stories. We laugh and laugh and laugh….

We’re ok.

Tomorrow’s going to be an exciting day …..

Lights off.

To be continued….

Déjà vu – Tindering @40 The Saga continues…

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