I just realized, I didn’t finished my story about this. And since medyo malayo yung gap, I’ll include here portion of my story from my previous article.
Here it is:
To fast forward, I went to Cebu and helped out a Foundation. Dami ko din byahe. But my journey to Cebu left the biggest mark in my life. I never thought in my 40 years of existence, I would find my one TRUE LOVE! How could I have been so blind? All these years that I knew Him, ngayon ko lang talaga Sya nakilala. Yes TRUE LOVE really exist! Grabe akala ko wala na akong pag-asa! Pero because of Him, my eyes were able to see things differently. Alam mo yun, parang merong heart-hearts na lumulutang sa mata ko? Haha 😍 👈 Parang ganyan! ahahaha
It all started January of this year. I booked my ticket going to Cebu — 2nd week of January. I was feeling so excited and happy. Hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko kung bakit ba ako feeling excited and happy eh samantalang ivivisit ko lang naman yung client ko sa insurance at papasign yung proposals ko. Basta kakaiba, parang may kilig na hindi mo maintindihan….parang hawig sa feeling na natatae kana, ganyan! May pagsayaw at kanta pa nga akong nalalaman eh! Feeling winner sa lotto! Basta ramdam ko that time na may mangyayaring maganda saken!
The time came that I arrived na in Cebu. It was a Sunday, and the sun was up! It was indeed a beautiful day! After I got my bag, I went straight to the church for the service and meet my friends there, which by the way I considered my 2nd family. Sila actually yung clients ko din.
I couldn’t help but smile while I was in the car as I looked outside the window. I can feel the sun’s rays touching my cheeks. It was as if its giving me energy! Naalala mo ba yung feeling na papunta kayo sa beach? Di ba ang saya? Ganon na ganon yung nararamdaman ko!
Finally I arrived in the church. I saw some familiar faces who welcomed me. I sat on the 3rd row in-front so I can have a better view. The service started and we were all singing when I started noticing “Him”. He was at the center of the platform. I looked at “Him” and I just couldn’t believe what I felt that moment. It was a tingling feeling. “I Zinged!”
Ewan ko ba! Parang nanlaki yung mata ko! Hindi ba si Kuya “G” yun??? Dati ko pa naman sya kilala simula bata pa ako, pero that time when I attended the service, He was different! I never thought He would get my attention! Para bang ang gwapo gwapo Nya! Yung feeling na bagong ligo at ang sarap amuyin! Hayst! I remembered tuloy nung bata pa ako. Kase noong maliit pa ako, crush na crush ko talaga Sya. He was my playmate then. Tapos buddies pa kami sa pag-aaral. Sinasabayan Niya ako laging magmemorize ng mga poems noon kaya ang bilis bilis kong makamemorize. Lagi kaming magkausap. Tapos naalala ko pa na tinuruan Nya akong gumamit ng typewriter at magsulat ng napakadaming mga alamat bilang project namin yun dati sa school. Madalas ko Siyang tawagan. Siya lagi ang sumbungan ko kapag may problema o may nang-aaway saken. Pero nung nagsimula na akong magkacrush sa iba, hindi na kami madalas mag-usap. Actually ako yung hindi na tumatawag sa kanya. Tapos madalas wala din ako sa bahay kaya hindi Nya ako natatawagan bilang di pa naman uso cellphone non. Hanggang nung college years ko, dun na kami halos nawalan na talaga ng communication. Maraming taon na rin lumipas. Minsan kapag umuuwi ako samin, nakikita ko Sya. Minsan nag-uusap din kami pero madalas ang hindi.
Napaisip tuloy ako, bakit ganon? Parang kakaiba Sya! He seems to be very influential at yayamanin! His face is glowing and His presence just gives positive vibes to everyone! Yung mga tao dun sa church gustong gusto Sya! Wala na akong narinig sa mga tao dun kundi compliments about Him. Kahit ako nga eh, napapabilib talaga. Hay nako, ibang-ibang talaga si Kuya “G” nung nakita ko.
Natapos na yung service pero hindi ko pa rin Sya makalimutan. Iba talaga yung feeling ko. Para bang na starstrucked ako!
I went with my friends, who were also my clients and 2nd family in Cebu, and stayed in their house. Ayun ang saya saya namin! Kwentuhan, harutan at tawanan! Ang ingay! Kasama ko yung big brother B and big sister C ko. Mga magulang kung ituring ko. Dami naming kwentuhan hanggang sa napag-usapan namin yung about sa mga ginagawa nila ngayon sa ministry. Kinuwento sakin ni Big Brother B yung pangarap nya na makatulong sa maraming tao, lalo na yung mga sawi, yung mga feeling talunan sa buhay, yung mga bugbog na sa mga sugat at yung mga tao na nawalan na ng liwanag sa buhay. Grabe, ang ganda ganda naman at ang galing galing! Parang gusto ko din non! Yung makatulong sa kapwa! Pero nagulat talaga ako ng sabihin ni big brother B na si Kuya “G” ang nagbigay sa kanya ng idea na yun! Huwaattttt!????!!! Napadrop Jaw talaga ako non! Isipin mo! Si Kuya “G” talaga nagbigay ng idea na yun??? At hindi lang yun! Sya pa daw ang punong abala lagi sa mga gawain sa church!!
Naiintriga na talaga ako sa kanya. Gusto ko a tuloy i-stalk tong si Kuya G. Bakit ba kase iba na Sya now. Sabagay noon naman matulungin na Sya. Pero hindi naman Sya gaya ng pagkakakilala ko dati. Noon madalas Syang tahimik at nakikinig lang. Pero ngayon, base sa mga kwento nila ang daldal Nya! Sya pa talaga nagbibigay ng instructions. Ibang iba Sya sa pagkakakilala ko.
Nung hapon ding yun, bumalik ako sa church para umattend ng evening service. After non, umuwi ako sa bahay nila big brother B and big sister C. Laking gulat ko nung andun si Kuya “G” at kausap Nya si big brother B. Nakaupo sila sa dining table. Kinabahan ako bigla ng napatingin si Kuya “G” saken…
To be continued….
So here it is the continuation….
At that time, I was called to sat beside big brother B. He shared to me the vision from Kuya G, and it was pretty awesome. I can’t explain what I felt that time, but I couldn’t help but be involved in the work.
Everything went fast as we started working on the project. There were so much activities — meeting after meeting and since then I have been coming back and forth to Cebu. And during these times… I had more time spent with Kuya G.
There are times that I’ve been talking to Him almost every night. And night after night that we talk, He has been revealing new things to me. Everything He has been saying to me really makes sense. And because of that, the more I fell inlove with Him. And I was truly convinced that He is the one for me. And so, I was determined to be where He is working.
And so I left everything in Manila and pursued the work in Cebu. I began moving my stuff here in Cebu and started to give full time work to the project. Most of the times I would do things to impress Him. But there are days that I question myself of the decision I made. What in the world did I ate that made me leave my life in Manila just to do this project??? The project is definitely tough, and I had concerns with people. It seems that only few people are skilled to do the work. And so, I had a hard time. But whenever I would see Kuya G, in seems that I am reminded of my true purpose, and that is to be closer to Him.
One day, I was very exhausted with work, then Kuya G, talked to me. He asked why I am sad. And so I started venting out my concerns again about people and the resources we need to jump start the project. And He was just looking at me smiling while I rant and rant. And when I finally got tired of talking, He began to speak with a gentle voice saying, I can provide you that. All you needed to do is ask. My jaws just dropped at that moment!
And so the following day, Kuya G worked on the things I complained about and started bringing in new people to support us in the project. He also provided the resources I needed, it wasn’t much, but it was enough to help us through. Basta, the moment He started to be involved, it was different. He made me feel that I am secured and supported that no matter what will happen, He will be there. His evident devotion in helping me made me realized that He might have been loving me secretly ever since. And because of that, the more I am falling for Him.
Days and months passed by when we finally had the chance to really talked about our relationship. He finally said the words, ” I love you… ” , He stretch out His hand and gave to me His only valuable possession. At that moment it was as if I travelled back in time – I began to be reminded of all the good memories I had with Him and how we were so close back then. How we talk all the time, and how I would cuddle me whenever I am sick. But then I was also reminded of the very reason why I decided to drift away from Him. It was an intense moment. I began to cry and cry endlessly. I couldn’t explain my feelings that time —- it was a mixed emotion of regret, happiness, remorse, gratefulness, joy and love. But in the midst of these emotions, I just knew in my heart that I love Him and I know if there’s anything I would want in this world, it is to spend my forever with Him. And so I finally said, “I love you…” and my life was never been the same after that.
And now, I am still here, working on our project. It is still tiring, but this time around, Kuya G is doing most of the work. He is just an awesome partner. But I couldn’t say that our relationship is always on cloud 9, there are still moments that I fight with Him and reason out. Our relationship is still work in progress, but what’s important is that He never gives up on me and I am the same with Him.
Oooppss, by the way, before I forget, I want to introduce to you Kuya G —- His real identity is “God” — He’s really popular you know! And I am just so proud of Him!